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Wednesday, June 15, 2005

My project has reproduced like bunnies

What started as a simple project has manifested itself into a whole bunch of projects in a very short amount of time. I was so excited with one simple project. It was one 1,200-word article. Call a couple of people, ask them some questions, write it all down. Simple, simple.

But instead of just taking on this one project, it has morphed into three projects--one per month for the next three months. After signing up for this one project with Bay Area Parent Magazine, my editor emailed me saying that there was this other, bigger, two-part project I might be interested instead. So feeling all puffed up because they contact me, I said that I could do them all, no problemo.

And I can. The work isn't the hard part. The hard part is accepting that I'm responsible for the outcome for a lot of work. Actual work. Work that will mean I need to hire child care so that I can do this work. During business hours.

These assignments are the most non-parental responsibility I have had since before Toddler in Chief was born. And it's a little scary, a little intimidating. It's like when we first brought TIC home from the hospital. There were no more nurses or machines beeping and flashing. Father in Chief had to go back to work and it was just me. All of it was up to me. I knew I could do it, but it was a little scary and a little intimidating as I floundered with breastfeeding and figuring out how to get him to sleep and stop crying. Without family nearby, it was all up to me to sort out, until FIC came home at the end of each day.

Now there are these projects I'm in charge of. It's just me. It feels good to know that I'll be working and writing regularly, but I've signed away part of my time. And I guess it's just going to take some getting used to. Oh, and "woo hoo!!"

2 comments:

  1. YOU GO GIRL! I knew you had it in you! :-) See?!?

    Just take it a day at a time. Deep Breaths. And work like I always knew you could.

    When I first starting working out of the home, I felt the SAME way-- like, Oh my, I am leaving my son (even when my days were hectic working WITH him at my side)! And how do I do this? But... I am here to tell you... it works out just fine.

    I think this little bit of freedom, and of your old-self coming back out to play with these projects will be GREAT for you! :-) Let us know when they are published!

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  2. Woo hoo indeed! That's really great news. I think TIC will benefit from going to a sitter... he will have fun and you will have fun doing some non-baby related things. It'll surely be a change to your everyday routine but it's definitely a good change. Congrats! How exciting!!

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