I really like what David said: "[W]ho cares what you tell people you do? What nonsense...Spend more time doing it and less worrying about these silly things."
The plain truth is that I need to focus on my shortcomings and flounderings and delve into who I am and wonder what I should do when I have a life to myself. I need those silly distractions. If I don't use these diversion tactics--regardless of how silly they seem--I'll be forced to think about the real stuff in my life. And that is just too fucking hard.
I can't imagine what it feels like to be facing another surgery for your son, but it must be really scary. I hope it goes well when the time comes.
ReplyDeleteI don't think any of what you have been grappling with in regard to your identity and your future career is silly.