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Tuesday, June 12, 2007

I've run out of excuses--shit!

I'm about to venture out into the land of the living, the land of the working, the land of laptops and lattes. I hired childcare yesterday--just 10 hours a week--and while I'm totally excited, I'm a little worried about actually having the time to work. It's a lot of pressure. I know it doesn't make any sense. But recently, it's been so easy to not work because it's really impossible to work when you have a wee one pulling at the power cords under the desk and another one constantly demanding food and attention. But once the childcare starts, what excuse will I have?

I guess I have some fear and it is twofold--fear of failure (can I actually write a book?) and fear of rejection (will anyone want to publish my book?). I guess there are some other fears in there too... Am I organized enough to write a book? Am I organized enough to write the proposal? Will an agent want to represent me? I know I'm getting a little ahead of myself, and I will try to not let the potential downers thwart my enthusiasm for my project. There is much work to do. And with most of my writing, I will give a piece of myself away as I write and write and write. But saturating my work with myself does not necessarily equal success. I can still feel the rejection from my recent submission to from Brain, Child magazine, and it feels about as good as sunburn.

Regardless, I will push forward. I will persevere. I will feel good about working towards a goal that I believe in. And I'll try to remember that getting burned is something that happens sometimes when you venture out into the sun.


  1. Yay!!! That's great. The trickiest part is using that precious child-free time effectively. I'm excited for you. :-)

  2. Exciting, for sure! Since I'm new to reading your blog, what is your new book going to be about? Good luck with everything!

  3. Girl.. you MUST go on. look at me. I got an agent all right (after about 60-something rejections). And now after 2 rounds of submissions... well, guess? Every big time publisher rejected it (and the 20 or so editors).

    So, I am back at square 1. Well maybe square 1.5 since I have an agent on my side. But still...

    It is part of the business. Just keep persevering. You'll get there! I know it!

  4. FYI for any moms with sons who have the Thomas train set and trains: major recall, as some trains contain lead!

    RC2 Corp. Recalls Various Thomas & Friends™ Wooden Railway Toys Due to Lead Poisoning Hazard

  5. Woo Hoo for childcare!! I'll give advice that I myself can't follow ;^) Just remember not to beat yourself up if every hour doesn't feel super productive. Sometimes something can come out of having done nothing . . . . right??

    I believe in you!!! And it doean't have a timeline or a deadline. ;^)